A Silent Waltz

Dulu, tulisan yang sama pernah saya copy-paste di blog yang lama. Tulisan yang saya temukan dari sini, entah dengan cara bagaimana. Tulisan yang selalu membuat saya mendadak jadi sok romantis dan melankolis. Tulisan yang semasa pacaran selalu membuat perasaan saya merasa terwakili. 

Well, 'perayaan jadian' saya dan suami masih sebulan lagi. Tapi saya ingin menyadurnya sekali lagi. Disini. Agar nanti, setelah layanan blog yahoo pulse resmi ditutup, saya tetap bisa membacanya sambil senyum-senyum sendiri. Seperti saat ini. 

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you are the one who doesn't know how to quit,
and i am the one who doesn't know how to begin.

have you got the chance to give it a chance?
or you just take chances by any chance?

breath, feel and release.

close your eyelids and open your senses.
tell me what you see.
wonderful as it may be, there might be nothing for you and me.

are you happy now?
are you still searching for it?

everyday is my dying day,
i don't have the courage and i must pay,
even though i really want to play,
i am too scared that everything wouldn't be okay.

please entertain me.
say anything to me.
enlighten me,
and reassure me.

because as far as i know,
i want to be your broken-winged guardian angel,
i want you to be found when you're lost,
i want to be a static sleep between your nightmares,
i want to be your neverending progress,
i want to be the one who understand you,
i want to be the man on your side so you can be the spotlight,
i want to be the one who like to hate you,
i want to be someone you can count on,
and nothing in the world, i mean nothing,
would ever change how i care for every second of your life. 

because your life is what creates mine.